Reading your past blog about your love life. I didn't mind. I didn't get all work up and i even make fun of you.:( I'm sorry if i reminded you about the past. I'm sorry for always hurting you. And i found out something...:'( You havent forgotten her. How foolish i am thinking you'll forget about her. How foolish i am to think you love me only. I guess i am the inbetween person, i shouldn't have came into your life. It was a mistake. Maybe you two might end up together and happy together. And wont qurrel or fight. I feel like i'm just being used. To forget someone you tried forgetting but cant...:'( I feel like an idiot, asshole, patatic, stupid and useless like a piece of junk. Having you to forget her is an impossible mission. I know. I feel like i'm just a replacement. I'm such a stupid fool. Thinking you love me truely. Guess what?! ALL THIS IS RUBBISH! You never love me once!:'( You would never know how much it hurts knowing the truth. You didn't like me nor love me. Through we are together. I'm a nobody to you. I'm a piece of junk. I'm someone to be there with you when you're bored. Fuck this. YOU CHEATED MY FEELINGS!!!:'( I can never replace that girl in your heart. I'm useless without you. I rather die then to be alive anymore..:'( Leave me alone to fade...:'( Don't take pity on me! I Love you like how couple treat each other. What do i get?! Nothing! I don't wanna face you anymore. After all i'm a USELESS JUNK TO YOU!!:[
Didn't text you, waiting for your text since yesturday. Hiaz... still no text came from you. Tmr is my b'day did you forget all the plans you make for my b'day? Did you forget about me totally?? I guess tmr i would be staying at home... Starring into space knowing that you forgotten all about me. Crying to myself silently. Hiding myself under the blanket. Crying a river flow. If crying makes you come back to me i don't mind crying till my eyes red, unable to breath. Looking through our photos... We look cute together. But, do we have to end it?? You were there to light my day, You were there to guide me through. From my days down and on, i'll never stop thinking of you. How can i forget all that, when you're the one who make me smile. You'll always be apart of me, how i wish you were still mine. Never will i forget the day how we've met and come this far. We all know we got this feeling but somehow it has to end up here. You mean so much to me. For all the things i've done and said for all the hurt and pain i've caused, i hope you would forgive me. Cause i didn't meant to hurt you. I'll never find someone like you. Even if we didn't last, i still thank you for the love and happiness you gave me. I never felt this alone. You open up my eyes and all i think is You, in my life, in my dreams in my heart i know it's true that i belong with. Because of you in my world, in my arms i have everything and now i cant imagine what my life would be without Y.O.U. I never love would be such a curosity, what attracted you to me was so unexpected. I love you. Cradled in the warmth of your love. Feeling the softness in your lips... Holding you close to my heart... Life seems like an everlasting dream with you by my side...
