Christmas(not looking forward to)

It's going to be christmas! Don't really have the mood through...:/ where did the christmas spirit go?!?! SIGHHHH! All i want is to spend quaility time with you!:'( It's so hardddddd!:'( Everytime when i ask you i don't get it why must you ask her to come along to?! Is like all you want is to spend time with her! Oh wells! Nevermind! I don't like forcing ppl... So forget it... This christmas is me and myself... My plan for christmas(Fail) As usual... Not surprise my plan failed anyway... Hiax... Not the first time! Sighh!:) Smile is the best disguise i guess...:) So i will smile on the outside and pretend i'm happy...Gtg grandma house to eat tangyaun! YUM! YUM! Through i don't have the appetitide to eat... Hopefully i don't give them bad mood and just pretend everything is perfect!:) Bye!:) (Sacrastic smile) LOL!

When a girl leaves you. Someone to fight for me

Baby, if i would leave you one day saying i don't love you anymore it would be a lie. And if i would to tell you when you're with me do this:
Ran after me and pour your heart out. Tell me the reason why you loved me, and you gotta mean every word you said. Kiss me like you never kiss me before, hold me in your arms like you're protecting the world, make me feel like i'm the whole world to you. Fight for me, don't let me go. Because once i leave, there is no turning back for me...

Just once, i want someone to be afraid of losing me. Not just saying but, mean it at the same time. In this world most ppl just say that they don't wanna lose you but,they decided to leave. I want someone to fight for me. When i'm about to leave, you would pull me back. Tell me what you love about me. Tell me how much you love me. Tell me what i mean to you. Show me how much you don't wanna lose me. Words mean nothing, i want you to prove it to me everything that you every said to me. Remember you saying 'you love me and once my baby always my baby?', well show me you do. You say you care about me, prove it. You say you don't wanna lose me well, show me. One day, i hope you would fight for me...</3

Shit feelings:'(

I never thought that I would lose my mind, I thought i could control this. Don't wanna lose you now. Baby, I know we can work this out together. I really don't wish to lose you again. Not now, not ever again!
I've got this feeling you're not gonna stay. It's burning within me. The fear of losing, of you slipping away. It just keeps getting closer, baby. The thoughts has been running through my head... Whatever reason for you to leave would you put it aside? Cuz, My place was always beside you. And i wish that I didn't need you so badly... But, it's impossible. Your face just won't go away in my mind. And no one could every replace you in my heart. I need you tonight, and forever. ILoveYouMyDearForever!<3

THIS! Is what i'm afraid off!:'(
1) If you see me all the time, you'll get sick and tired of me.
2) If you talk to me all the time, you'll run out of words to say.
3) If we do the same things all over again, you'll get bored and tired of us.
4) If i'm too nice to you, you'll take advantage of me.
5) If i'm too mean to you, you'll dift away from me.
6) If someone else gets your attention, you'll ignore me.
7) If you meet someone new, you'll leave me..

And just wanna let you know,
If one day you wanna cry, call me.
I cant promise you i can make you laugh. But, i can cry with you.
If one day you wanna run away, call me.
I cant promise you i'll make you stop. But, i'll run with you.
If one day you are bored, call me.
I cant promise you i will entertain you. But, i can tell you i'm bored too.
If one day you tell me you love me.
I promise, I'll say ILoveYouToo.