I'm not a expert...

I'm not an expert at relationships, i don't know how to handle every fights we have. Or maybe going to have, and i will never be a perfect person. We're both still young, and we still have alot to learn. But, i'm willing to take all chances, risk it all, and learn everything there is to know. Just to keep us together. I never gave up on you. Until, you gave up on me. Yes, i know. I'm the one who left and didn't held you closer to me. But, before that you've already fallen for her. I had no choice to let go maybe let you be with her which you already did. And if you perfer her then me. Then go ahead. I wish you two the best. And if you ever need my help, i promise, i'll be there<3 Maybe, just maybe. I was your best?

Life alone...

It's been 2weeks leaving life alone... You're doing great with a new girl... Me? Putting on a mask every single day of my life... Sighhhh!:( I thought to myself 'out of the billion people, why still you?' Oh wells, guess i'm #foreverstupidgirl. And #forever alone:/ What's done cannot be erase. I guess i would be so called 'secret admire'>< CHEYYYY!:/ Oh whatever!>< I'M SO DEAD! I cant think properly now!:/ AND THE WHOLE WORLD REMINDS ME OF YOU! WHATEVER I DO!:'( SIGHHHH! I sleep with my bearbear now!:( Hug it everytime i go to bed.. IMissYouVeryBadly. But, you miss her very badly:( Use to smell your jacket before i sleep and after i wake up but return it to you:( SO now more your smell:( Oh wells...:( Sighhh! Sometimes i wonder if you still have feelings for me... And then i think to myself again WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU LIKE ME, THIS TYPE OF PERSON NOT WORTH! FUCKING UGLY! AND EVERYTHING! I pretend my teddybear is you... I have even gone insane!:/ Talking to my teddybear thinking i'm talking to you and stuff...:/ Laughing... Thinking about memories we had and tears would flow down... It's just me bah... Goodnight<3

The day we were strangers

Well, i left you on the 26/02/12. Remembered it very clearing. I thought about it for very long if i should or not. While, my desicion were yes. I took the courage to walk out of your life but forgotten to take my heart along!:'( Oh wells!:( Now, my heart is broken. Sighhh:/ Well, i know you gonna love her anyways. I have sixth sense you know? And it's very obviours! You texting her everday! And ignoring my text?! FUCK THIS OKAY?!?! YEAH! Anyways, you should be happy now:/ I gave up my happiness for yours. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!?! I didn't know it's that easy to forget me! Maybe because i'm not worth remembering ba... Sighhh... Leaving on my own now... What can i say? Good luck in your new relationship with her... Hopefully she doesn't affect our friendship:/ Let's just say i rather we be friends then nothing:) Hiax... being ask by 2guys 1girl. Regected all. Am i foolish? Well, i still have FEELINGS FOR YOU! FUCK THIS MAN! WHY?!?!:'( I CANT SEEM TO FORGET!:'( IT'S NOT AS EASY AS IT SEEMS!:'( I would just suffer this alone...:'(