28.8.11

Woke up at 11++ and started to stare to the space till 12++ and recieve a message from you! :) And the whole day i spent is watching television!!! Boring ttm! *YAWNS* Long time no blog! So decided too! I'm going overseas! :D Hopefully, i would have fun there withouth you..:'( I bet i'll miss you like crazy... And maybe not being able to sleep...:( One day without you i feel like dying already! Imagine four days without you!!! :( DIE!!! Sigh... IMISSYOU! Sigh... i cant see you i until the day i come back from holiday... sigh...:( SAD MUCH! D: MEWANNACRY!!! :'(

Boredom Stricks!...

Yesturday was 8.8.11!!! Our 5th month! And as while as our school celebration for singapore birthday!!! =] Hmmm, was not all that bad... The celebration was fine... And it's better after the celebration... Except the part where you go super hyper! That was scary! HAHAHA! But still, i had lots of fun... Till i had to leave and go home... :( Shouldn't have left early, but i know if i don't go home you would go home so late... Impossible! Later i'm afraid something happen to you...>< Sigh... everything was fine till what your mum said...:( Though we shouldn't be together... but i cant, without you there wouldn't be a me today...:'( I keep messaging you but you didn't replied, i thought you were angry or something... And when i called you pick up surely not fallen asleep... I called cuz, i was afraid...:( I asked you why didn't you message me back? you said why must i replied... That's why my mood started to change...:'( I didn't want to talk so i said nothing much! I'm gonna sleep now. Bye! And off the phone. Guess what? I cried myself siliently to sleep... Hees... And today bored much!!! Waiting for your message... guess today wasn't meant for you and me to message each other due to you hanging out with your friends and i shall not disturb you anymore... I Shouldn't be disturbing you right from the start yet i keep doing it... Why?! IHATEMYSELF! :[ From now on i tell myself whenever you're with your friends i would never message you even reply you. If i message you, i'll feel super bad... Like, I cant always have you by myside talking to me you need your own space and time. I understand i really do! BYEBYE!

It went all wrong...

I feel so shitty case today... Had cca and i thought you were waiting for me and as while practice your dance... But guess i was wrong... you werent waiting for me... what was i thinking... Left the school hoping you would rush to chase after me like you always do before i left... but i was wrong again... I sat down in the bus and tear... miss holding your hand...): I thought i would be able to hold your hand, hug you and maybe a goodbye kiss before i go home... that might make everything better... but sigh... it all ended wrong... you message me and i said ttyl guess you were busy practicing your dance... so didn't want to disturb you... and if the more i message you i know that the more tears will start flowing down... walking home started to think of you.. And holding my tears back... Walk up the staircase all alone... feeling cold and lonely back then... Nearly fell backwards... and it remains me of how you use to hold me and making sure i don't fall... but this time i need to save myself... i wish i didn't stop myself from falling... Don't feel like going so stop at fifth floor cried like nobody bisnuess... Wipped away my tears and headed home... and cried again under my bed... After few long minutes clean away my tears... my mum asked me why is my eyes all red and swallon i shook my shoulder acting nothing happen... Sigh... feeling cold... head pain... throat pain...]: guess now i'm gonna bath and cry softly to myself...]':