I'm not worth a cent. I'm sorry. You should listen to your mum. It's best for you. Being with me it's just a pain, tears and heart aches. It isn't worth. Not at all. Lingering affection affects me, I want you to stay, I want to keep you by myside forever. But, i wont be selfish anymore. How can i forget you?? When you're the shinning sun of my life. If i just ask you to leave me, i'll no longer being able to suvive. But, i cant say i love you anymore, i cant ask you to wait for me anymore. I'm just a stupid-fool. I'm nothing but a trouble maker. With or without you. You decide. But, homestly... I'm not good enough for you. I cant meet your expectations... You are the reason behind ever heart aches and tears but, you manage to cure all of them. You're the reason that make me living worth for. But now to me, there's nothing worthto live for anymore. Died or alive does not make any difference.

Now and then hated myself more&more!

Just came back after school after finishing file-ing my science file... Wanted to wait for you, but decide not too. I'll grant you your wish, since you hate me waiting for you. So i'll leave. I'm stupid for doing such things. And i cant face you now... I feel so stupid... Luckily tmr is saturday, or else i would need to a letter to teacher for not attending to school...:/ Thanks for the lunch you prepared but, from now on you don't have to anymore. I wont ask. And i wont be texting you today, and maybe the few days after. I'm sorry... I took out the battery. I don't feel like texting anybody. I saw the hatered in your eyes... If you ask me to leave you for good, I would. Don't hesitate, if you really want. I don't wish to hurt you anymore like i've been doing. I wont stop you from talking or sms anyone from now on. I was a fool thinking that you are mine! I realise that i couldn't be all that selfish... If she wants to have you, garnt her, her wish. I wont stop you anymore. Through i really wish i could hold you tightly in my hands. But it's a wish, it'll never happen. I'm just a stupid fool who only knows how to cry alot. I've hurt you enough. Even if you deny, i know i did. I'm sorry. Unknowingly, i've hurt you so deeply. And what is this now?! My tears keep flowing down and my heart aches. I have the image of you and her. But, i wont say anything anymore, you got the freedom to befriend to whom ever you wish. I'm sorry. I know i can control my hands in not texting you cuz, i'll be eating sleeping pills, making sure i wont text you. Even if i'm like this, you wont be bothering. You got her now, teasure her. My friend tried to stop me but i ran away. Jealousy hurts, so does love.

Where did it go wrong? On our 6month...:(

Today was meant to be prefect, but what happen to it?:( Just a call from someone can change everything you know?:( Is it my mind or is it getting more suspecious?! It's obviours... Even i can see it. She likes you don't you get it? She wants you so badly, cant you tell? She want you to leave me... would you?:( Sigh...:( I cried in the toliet, yes i did! Indeed. I had to control it yet it kept flowing down...:( I have two  voices in my head once again! :( I don't know what to do...:( I hate it when you talk to her, yet i hate myself more! Why?! I wish to tell you, but i don't wish to stop you from talking to whom you wish to talk too! I would hate myself and feel so self-fish... I hate the feeling! :'( I feel so insecure! I never have been this in love before. You're the only one who love me for who i am! And only one who cared for me so dearly. You're the only special one for me! :( I dunno what to do without you. :( I'll never wanna say goodbye to this love! :'( Please stay and don't go...:'( Can we make it last forever?:'( I wish to be the one and only one in your heart! And no one else.. Will you grant me my wish or not?:( Guess i already know the answer...:'( OMGOSSH! #MY SO CALLED FATHER IS SO FUCKING IRRITATING!!! ARGGGGG! FUCK SIA! SERIOUSLY!==