Where did it go wrong? On our 6month...:(

Today was meant to be prefect, but what happen to it?:( Just a call from someone can change everything you know?:( Is it my mind or is it getting more suspecious?! It's obviours... Even i can see it. She likes you don't you get it? She wants you so badly, cant you tell? She want you to leave me... would you?:( Sigh...:( I cried in the toliet, yes i did! Indeed. I had to control it yet it kept flowing down...:( I have two  voices in my head once again! :( I don't know what to do...:( I hate it when you talk to her, yet i hate myself more! Why?! I wish to tell you, but i don't wish to stop you from talking to whom you wish to talk too! I would hate myself and feel so self-fish... I hate the feeling! :'( I feel so insecure! I never have been this in love before. You're the only one who love me for who i am! And only one who cared for me so dearly. You're the only special one for me! :( I dunno what to do without you. :( I'll never wanna say goodbye to this love! :'( Please stay and don't go...:'( Can we make it last forever?:'( I wish to be the one and only one in your heart! And no one else.. Will you grant me my wish or not?:( Guess i already know the answer...:'( OMGOSSH! #MY SO CALLED FATHER IS SO FUCKING IRRITATING!!! ARGGGGG! FUCK SIA! SERIOUSLY!==