Missing you is all i do!

Suppose to meet you this morning waited for you for, 40min+ Haha! But, you didn't turn up... I thought i wouldn't be able to see you and started to emo...)': Guess what? I cried for hours in the toliet yesturday when you fall asleep... Hiax... Anyway, today manage to see you as you went to school... The first time i saw you i was so happy and wave at you but sadly you didn't see me you were jumping around like some monkey! Haha! But nevermind...as long as you're happy i'm happy!(: Then, after school Cried and cried over and over again! Throw my phone! I couldn't bare for you to leave...)': I beg you not to leave even through i know it's impossible...sigh... Come home talking to you and i cried silently hopefully you didn't hear me crying... I MISS YOU SO BADLY RIGHT NOW! You know how much it hurts you leaving?! Even writting this blog is so hard dropping tears...tell me what to do? I feel like shouting! Shouting out all my emotions! WHY?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess this few this would be a lonely me...)': Without you i'm nothing... It's tough but i'm trying to get use to you leaving... Hope you're doing fine... I try not thinking where you are tonight and following days but i cant! Cuz, baby...I miss you so freaking badly! I hurt, i'm in pain! Come and kiss me to cure the painfulness in me! I wanna hear your voice so badly right now... IMISSYOU!!!  13 MORE DAYS! And now i feel s through as i'm dying... i can't hold on anymore!)':

Today

Wake up in the morning!!! Suppose to wake up around 5.15am so i got 1hour to prepare and get ready to leave house...meeting you at 6.15am! But guess what?! I woke up at 4.11 and slept back and never wake up again! Arggggg!!!>:/ so angry at myself!!!): I make you wait like what 30min?! Gossh!!! I'm really really very and truely sorry for making you wait!!! IHATEMYSELF FOR THAT! Yessh! Was rushing and went down to meet you...went school together went to macs and was full of ppl! So decided to go 711 instead... Nothing to do! BORED MUCH!!! Sigh... Decide to go school started talking heart3heart talk...haha! And didn't expect you to give me a kiss in THE SCHOOL?! Hahaha! AWESOME! I got bonus! HEHE! :P Went for learning journeys... wasn't that bad... after that went macs... i ate the bread you make for me..delicious! YUMMY YUMMY! Went back to school yeah...didn't manage to see you as you have not reached school so headed back to class...BORED!>< Dying to end school... Was trying to 'ENJOY' my time in class which didn't really suceed!!! Then, school ended around 2... Went to canteen! And went around finding you and didn't manage so headed back to canteen saw my sister decided to beg her to follow me so she did! YIPEE~! And found you! But, you were too busy! So nevermind...didn't wanna disturb you! So...blah! Nothing to say liao! BYEBYE!:P

Another day with sorrow!

A day with pain again...Went church this morning, was so tired...but, nevermind...since you're going i shall go too! So that i could see you... At first my mood was tired and it turn to become angry...and during sevice it was kinda happy cuz, i mange to see you... But, after service don't know why my mood change suddenly...;/ When you were dying to leave that place...I don't know how to describe my feelings!!! I don't even know what's my mood! I'm mess up! Before you left you asked me if i wanna hug you before you leave...i wanted too! But i was afraid that if i hug you, i wouldn't wanna let you go...;/ And you waited outside for me cuz, you think that i'm sad well, not say you're wrong but it was partly true anyway...;/ I didn't know why too! Saw you outside wanted to walk towards you but then again i was afraid...Sigh... I asked you to go cuz, i didn't want to take up your time on waiting for me...cuz, it doesn't matter... I know i would be afraid...Guess what?! I cried in the mrt...)': I was lying down on the glass door and thoughts of me and you together in the mrt...your image suddenly came into my mind. Yes indeed, i cried...i hide my face oneside when no one could look at me...then, the thoughts of you wipping of my tears flashes...i cried even more and the more i cry the more tears would roll down i want to cry out loud but i cant... I force myself not to cry! But, i cant help it...the more i force not to the more tears it would drop...)': Sigh...and i was listening to YOUR favourite song!!! Make me think about you more and more tears drop... i bang my head onto the thing three time hoping you would 'TSK' me...but sigh...i know i was just imagining that you were here beside me..but, like i said i was imagining and day dreaming...cuz, i know you aint going to be beside me...And yet, i still acted like you were... How foolish and silly i was right? Ha... I wanted to message you but i didn't dared to afraid you were busy...sigh... Today is a afraid day i guess? Haix... then i have no idea why every minute, every second and every hour i would take a look at my phone hoping you would message like 'hey!' or 'rawr!' or 'woof!' or some happy happy staff but not a single message from you at all... I wanted to message you but yet again i was afraid i fright back...i kept hitting my hand thinking if you wanted to message me you would...so no point me trying my best here, when you don't wish too! )':

Tell me please? I don't wanna lose you!

There're so many things I wanna say. There're so many thoughts inside of me. But my words can seem to find a way. I can see you changing more and more. Acting like you didn't do before. I see you slipping away. But I don't wanna lose you. I would do anything for us to remain. Cause I know that we can make it last. To be true, I don't wanna lose you. Tell me that you love me from the heart. And nothing in the world can tear us apart. Tell me that we'll be together. The rest of our lives, baby now and forever. Tell me that you still believe in everlasting love
And we'll always be together. Baby take a look inside yourself. Am I the one you see or someone else. Baby please be true you've gotta let me know. Tell me what to do to make you show. Cause I don't wanna feel this insecure. You've gotta give me a sign. Cause I don't wanna lose you. Tell me that you love me from the heart. And nothing in the world can tear us apart. Tell me that we'll be together. Remember all the promises we made?
Remember all the words we used to say? That an open heart will always find a way. What would it take for me to make you realize. And I know that we can make it last. To be true, I don't wanna lose you. Will you tell you love me forever? With all your heart? Please...I don't want you to leave me...I want our love to last forever...♥

Together with you...

I was a girl who trusted no one with my heart. And the dreams that young girls dream were vanishing on the dark. But now, i've found the one! And heaven will only know what only my eyes could say and guess what they say? They say that i will take you forever! And there will never be anyone else in my heart but you. Now that my touch and heart belongs to you and i will always be your 'bestfriend'. Now my secrets are safe with you and the magic will never end cuz, i'm not going to give up my relationship with you! Now that you are the one, i want to hold on tight to you... I Love you! And i would destroy the person who tries to come between us! They say that true love doesn't last long! But for us, we will and forever last long! Cuz, i would never give up on you no wait! What i meant was US! {: We've been through ups and down...and we bulit a wall together...so that no one could break us and make us fall apart! It's hard to bulit a wall, you know? So i aint giving up! Even if it takes time, days, month, years or forever i would still try my hardest to fix it back, even if it's by myself i would still do it! Just reminding you that what ever happens i would always be there for you! And that i love you no matter what others say about us... They might say we wont last long! But, i have faith in you that our love will last long and prove to them that our relationship could last long. And relationship fall apart Not because if you were meant to be or not and it isn't about the abscence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was one was being loved too much, and the other wasn't being loved that much! Hiax...And I Love You! Hope you're feeling the same! Are you crazy?? Ofcause! Cuz, i feel your love! (': Wipe away my tears...And i smile for you! :] Very Very Very big smile! {: And that smile is when i'm about to cry for happinese between me and you!!! You know it hurts alot not having you beside me it feels like you're a million miles away from me! You live in my world as many stars in the world... ever since you came to my life you've change everything and make me believe in myself when nobody could help...I want to love you forever! Will you let me, hold on tight to you? And I'm not leting anyone taking you away from you! Never! I'm a self fish person! Sorry! But, i could never let you go! And i will never let you go and give you up unless you give up on me first... Tell you that i will never let anyone take you away and even if you have been taken away, i wont be sitting around and seeing someone else has you i would never ever let anyone take you away from me! So please don't ;eave me alone from this lonely place alright? I'm done blogging, going to have a cold cold bath maybe i would sleep nice today...

I'm thinking of you & Missing you! And wishing you were here

I miss you like crazy court down the days and time... I'm like going so crazy!!! Finally, today you're back! I can't sleep! I don't know why, but yeah! I just cant! Kept hearing all you're favourite songs...especially marry you and i love you this big! I keep on replying and replying... But, mostly on i love you this big!♥ I remembered you use to sing it to me this and stetch out your hands you hug me...(New style way of hugging) remember?  Haha! I loved it! You message me before you left and you ask me to wait for you! Guess what? I'm listening to wait for you...And yes! Definitely i will wait for you! Even if it takes the rest of my life! :] You got me crazy, ever since you left! Tomorrow going bbq at bukit batok, not sure if i should go! Should i? With my sis? Hmmm, let me think about it, I wished i could see you! But, nah...after your camp you must be really really very super tired so yeah...and even if i asked you to go, you would surely reject me, what's the point of asking, Haha! IMISSYOUSOMUCHTHATITHURTS!!!♥

3 things that i need...

Guess what?! I cant even eat a peaceful dinner!><" My bro keep taking my food when he has his own...== And i have to give in to him...WTH! I'm not even full...Nevermind...i lost 1kg Hehe! :P Shall ask him to snatch more next time...Hiax! Maybe i would be able to lost weight more! I feel so fatty! Haha! Hmmm, my tittle says i need three things... that's right! I really do need 3things really badly! Here goes, the three things i need is the mood, sun and most improtantle is YOU! The moon for the night! The sun for the day and you for the rest of my life! {: Hehs! Oh one more thing!
Days without you is like...
x Sadday
x Moanday
x Tearsday
x Wasteday
x Thirsday
x Frightday
x Shatterday
And my days will continue the same, until you come back!...♥

Day 2...

It's day2 without you...wake up, and my hand is so pain...>< It turn purple! WTH! I cant even barely move my arms! Hurts alot!!! But, i tried moving here and there hopefully the pain goes away...;/ my arm still hurts a little but not as much as just now still can move! :D Haha! Wash up! And i'm in the mood in doing my homework! Until, i started watching spongbob squarepants...== hahaha! And eat my yummp yummy fried rice...haha! That reminds me, eating in your house! And it's fried rice too!!>< :( Whatever i do, it reminds me of you! Sigh...So i decided to get back in doing my homework! Do you believe that there is only 3more days till school re-open?! YESSH!!!>:( I'm not done with my holidays!!! So fast?! But, actually i'm kinda looking for it...cuz, i could see you everyday! But...sigh...:( I'M NOT DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK!!! Hopefully tomorrow i could finish it? Try my luck then! Hiax! Hmmm, i've heard about PHYSICAL FACTS(is it true??0.0) : When the person cries and the first tears come out from the right eye means happinese but when the first drop comes from the left is pain?...Haha! Wonder what's mine...;/

Couldn't do anything, without you...

I have no appetite...first day, and i'm missing you like crazy?? Haix...Guess what?I think i'm awesome! :P I woke up didn't eat breakfast, didn't eat lunch and now i'm not eating dinner...hehe! xD But, at least i drink soup! Yummy Yummy soup! :P Hahaha!! Sigh...IMISSYOUSOBADLY...that my head is about to explode!
1. IMISSYOU! When something really good happen beacuse you're the one who i want to share it with...
2. IMISSYOU! When something troubles me, i want to tell you because you're the only one who understands me...
3. IMISSYOU! When i laugh and when i cry because you're the one who make the laughter grow and the tears dissapear...

Chalet

Went chalet today, nothing much! Hmmm, i shall not say grandmother story...:P Haha! Was about to leave the place and it rain heavily...walked under the rain, thinking that you use to rush me here and there making sure that i don't get wet...haha! Naggy you! :P But, dunno why...i seem to miss you nagging at me...:( It's late le...and the thoughts of you keep flashing in my mind...where you always fetch me home making sure i'm safe and nothing happens to me...i miss you being worried...:P Not being mean but yeah... I was very wet and cold and it feels like my head has someone or something pressing me..:/ I feel so cold! 19stops?! GOSSH! Freezing in the train!!! Burrr~! And i miss you even more, i was you were there with me...:( But, nevermind! Luckily, you wasnt through cuz, you wouldn't be all wet and it feels like i've just came out from bathing just havent clean my body yet!== Walking home from the mrt station...walk to the place we used to hang out...Missing you even more!:( Wishing you were right here beside me...holding onto me...:( And today, i slept like around 2.40am...woke up at 5.30am...message you before you leave and was waiting for your message...Luckily you replied or i would wait like siao...haha! When you're about to leave, i fell asleep around 7++? Not so sure...sigh... IMISSYOUTTM!! :( Can't wait for you to come back...

NO! :(

GOSSH!! I only have 21 hours to be with you! And it's on the phone! ): I can't even see you!! Sigh...): IWILLMISSYOUSOBADLY!!! REALLYALOT!! Why do you need to go for camps and staff?! I know it's for your cca but yeah too many camps le...)': I Will miss you like crazy, till can die! If i die, don't blame me alright? Sorry!>< AHHHHHH!!! I don't want you to have camps ): But, sigh...cant stop you from going and having camps...yessh! Hope you will have fun! Have lots of fun yeah? Without me nagging at you...hehe!:P Tmr, going to watch mr proper's penguin with my family(Mummy, Brother and sister). And you're going to watch alone!!! NO!!! I feel so bad now!!! I wanna be with you!!! sigh...): I'M SORRY I CANT BE THERE FOR YOU!!! VERY SORRY!!): Love you! Enjoy yourself yeah! I'll be fine waiting for you! Oh! Do you need my soft toy? I can lend you my toy so that you can hug it! If that helps you in not remembering me? Will it? Sigh...i Dunno if it helps! I Want your toy! PLEASE...): I will be eating the chocolates that you gave me, so that maybe i wont miss you? But, that wont work...Sigh!!! ILOVEYOU! KISSES FROM ME TO YOU!

Awesome day!

Today, was suppose to go east cost and ride bike with my mummy and brother...but, i didn't went! Cuz, needed to send you to the doctor...haha! But, it's worth! Able to spent time with you! Hehe! :] Went to see the doctor with you...not really, is i force one! :P Sorry!>< No choice i'm afraid...so yeah...went to follow you and make sure you're fine! And plus i would know if you took your medicine or not! Can't blame me! BLAH! After that, went to my house, my mum came back! Scary much!!! Eeks! But, you continue to stayed...Hehe! Cuz, your teaching me my homework! Anyways, my sis came back and open the room door! I got super frightened cuz, i thought that would be my papa! But luckily it wasn't...PHEW~! Then, i don't wish to torture you anymore so decided to let you leave and send you to the bus-stop! I hug you and you hug me back too! Zzzzz..Normal! Haha! And you didn't wanna let go! You hug very tight till i cant breath=suficating haha! But, nevermind! ILOVEIT! Hehe!>< But, too bad!The day ended so fast sigh... MISSYOULIKECRAZYNOW!!! GOING CRAZY LE!!! :( My bed smells just like you...;/ Funny right! Hahaha! If i had one wish, i would wish that i could stay with you forever! LOVEYOUFOREVER!!!

Back at one

It's undeniable that we should be together

It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never

The basis is need to know

 If you don't know just how I feel

Then let me show you now that I'm for real

If all things in time

Time will reveal. Yeah...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four - repeat steps one through three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one...yeah...
So Incredible the way things work themselves out
And all emotional

Once you know what it's all about, babe

And undesirable for us to be apart

Never would of made it very far
Cause you know you got the keys to my heart

One - you're like a dream come true

Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for meFour - repeat steps one through three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one... Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
Whose life has just begunYou came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for meFour - repeat steps one through three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one...

I hate this love song!

One woman is becoming disaster
Even though a man is still singing
I’m tearing up at the thought of break up

I can’t touch you, I know yeah eh
I’m falling, catch me..

I hate this love song… I hate this love song..
I hate this love song… I hate this love song.. 

I hate this love song, I’ll never sing it again
So I can stop thinking of you, so I can finally forget you

I hate this love song, I’m going to sing it with a smile
In order to cure your loneliness, I’m going to you now

I’m scared, this world is meaningless
Take me to where you are, a place with the moon and stars

We were so beautiful, you know
You taught me what love was, hello

I hate this love song… I hate this love song..
I hate this love song… I hate this love song..

I hate this love song, I’ll never sing it again
So I can stop thinking of you, so I can finally forget you

 I hate this love song, I’m going to sing it with a smile
In order to cure your loneliness, I’m going to you now

The warm rays of the sun are of another world
The field of reeds are dancing all alone
I remain paused at a green hill top holding a conversation I’ve yet to finish with her
The sky is of an expressionless face that holds no answers
You’re probably hiding behind the clouds, you’re probably a star

I close my eyes and feel your breath, I dream of you
A smile spreads across my lips, you’re breathing with me now
Time, please stop, don’t divide her and I
Wind, stop blowing, this is my last letter to you

Last sentence...

I hate cloudy air so hurt that only you can heal all the lonely yesterday's kite thrown in the corner of the intersection whom I do not want you to find the reasons for leaving

Every night you close your eyes I saw the nightmare is not smiles, but the person next to me at the moment a crack in the sky directly cut into my heart do not want to pretend that vulnerabilities do not want to love the weak

In fact, I love you I do not want to lose your right to say that I do not want you to give her a kiss while only sweltering may know more than I want to seize your heart

I know she loves you, you sad I am afraid of her afraid of you happy every day pretending to beg you to leave. Can not go wayward hidden in my mind the last sentence is actually i still love you


Can I beg you not to go wayward hidden in my mind the last sentence is actually still love you.

Wondering...

Take me as I am
Put your hand in mine
Now and forever
Darling here I stand
Stand before you now
Deep inside I always knew

It was you, you and me
Two hearts drawn together
Bound by destiny
It was you and you for me
Every road leads to your door
Every step I take forever more

Just say you'll love me for the rest of your life
I gotta lot of love and I don't want to let go
Will you still love me for the rest of my life?
Cause I can't go on, no, I can't go on
I can't go on, if I'm on my own

Take me as I am
Put your heart in mine
Stay with me forever
'Cause I am just a girl
Who never understood
I never had a thing to prove

Till there was you
You and me
Then it all came clear so suddenly
How close to you that I wanna be
Do you believe a love could run so strong?
Do you believe a love could pass you by?
There was no special one for me
I was the lonely one, you see
But then my heart lost all control
Now you're all that I know

Just say you'll love me for the rest of your life
I gotta lot of love and I don't want to let go
Will you still love me for the rest of my life?
Cause I can't go on, no, I can't go on
I can't go on, without somebody, I could come on
I can't go on, I could say I love

Do you still love me, i really hope one day can ask you this question.

 Do you still love me? But, if i ask you this question i scared to hear the truth... 

No mather how you ans me back,
I will still wait for you!
Almost everyday i will suddenly miss you,
and our sweet memories,
always make my tears drop...

The lazy song...

Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
I'm gonna kick my feet up then stare at the fan
Turn the TV on, throw my hand in my pants
Nobody's gon' tell me I can't
I'll be lounging on the couch just chilling in my Snuggie
Click to MTV so they can teach me how to dougie
'Cause in my castle I'm the freaking man
Oh yes, I said it, I said it
I said it 'cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all, nothing at all
Tomorrow I'll wake up, do some P90X
Find a really nice girl, have some really nice sex
And she's gonna scream out
This is great
(Oh my god, this is great)
Yeah, I might mess around
And get my college degree
I bet my old man will be so proud of me
But sorry pops, you'll just have to wait
Oh yes, I said it, I said it
I said it 'cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
No, I ain't gonna comb my hair
'Cause I ain't going anywhere
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
I'll just strut in my birthday suit
And let everything hang loose
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

Just being reminded...

Was very bored...starting to draw again...But, it's kinda failed...don't really like it...:/ ICANTDRAW AGHHHH!! Anyway my sis just remainded me that SCHOOLS ABOUT TO START!!! AND I'M NOT DONE FINISHING MY HOMEWORK!!! KILLMENOW!!! AHHHHH!!! But, i'm still very lazy doing my homework!!!>< I'm So Lazy!!! Talking about lazy hehe! Reminds me of the lazy song by bruno mars...:P hahaha!! Cant get the song out of  my head... HAHA!! It's just like me!!! HEHE~! I'm a lazy bum!!! :P

Choice...

If I Had To Choose Between Breathing And Loving You...
I'd Save The Last Breath To Say...

~I

    LOVE

               YOU!~

What each kiss mean?

♥Kiss on the forhead: We're cute together

♥Kiss on the cheek: We're friends

♥Kiss on the hand: I adore you

♥Kiss on the neck: I want you, now.

♥Kiss on the shoulder: You're perfect

♥Kiss on the lips: ILOVEYOU!!!♥

FAVOURITE SONG!!! ( Breakeven)

LYRICS!...
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakevenWhat am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break evenWhat am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

Meaning of love...

What does love stands for??

L- Lake of sorrow

O- Ocean of tears

V- Valley of death

E- End of life!

It feels like this pain will last forever. It feels like this hurt will never go away...

What does true love means?

True love is when you shed a tear and still want back that person..
Is when that person ignores you and you still love that person...
Is when that person loves another personbut you still smile and say 'i'm happy for you'

When all you really do is cry...and cry...)':

We were never perfect...i'm sorry...

If you love me now, will you continue to love me?
You aint perfect, neither am i and the two of us were never perfect together.
But, you could make me laugh...and being able to make me think twice and making me to admit being human and making mistakes.
I wish to hold on to you and give you the best that i can...
But i hurt you enough...i don't wish to hurt you anymore...
And i'm tired of my head spinning around going wild thinking about you...
I don't ask you to think of me every second cuz, i know you cant...
But you give me something that is part of you knowing that i could break it someday...
I'm sorry, i hurt you with my words...i'm sorry that this isn't the first time alright...
But you gotta understand me...i aint perfect...I am a normal human being, i'm afraid of losing you, i'm afraid of everything...I'm sorry that i'm such a lousy 'girlfriend'...And i'm sorry that i didn't trust you and put my 101% in trusting you...but, i feel so insecure...very insecure...Sigh...

I'm not perfect but i'll keep trying...will you forgive me?
-I feel the pain you do...and i wish is the opposite way...
-If you cry just a single drop, i would cry too...

Once upon a time...

Yesturday was bored...haha! So my sis decided to webcam!! Hehe! Took 63 pictures!! O: hahaha!! AWESOME!! Wanna see it? xD Favourite memory... Keep with me!! Hope you like it! :P

BAD DREAM OR REALITY ?!

Having difficulties sleeping this few days... I keep having a very very bad dream! Kill me now! Guess what i dream>? You together with someone else i you leaving me?!?! Is that gonna happen?! AFRAID!! But i cant stop you from loving someone...Lets just say If alright? 'IF' you like or maybe even love someone and love me no more...tell me would you? I don't wish to be kept in the dark yeah? Sigh...to tell you honestly... I'M FREAKING NOT READY!! Tell me what i'm i suppose to do?? Sigh...): All i could say, is all the best between you and her yeah? Last long...through in my heart is breaking still...all the times i spent together with you i thank you for all those wonderful momeories you gave me...I hereby, wish you all the best...(IF) See the smile on my face is fake... I'm feeling very very very cold down here... You're on my heart just like a tatoo!

Reasons why i love you...

I remembered you asked me why i love you, while i said i would tell you soon..so here is the reasons why i love you, hope you would be able to see it...

1. I can be myself when i'm with you.
2. You love me even with all my faults.
3. You're never boring.
4. Even when i'm grumpy, you still like me.
5. You make me feel like i've never felt it before.
6. When you hold me tight everything becomes alright! :)
7. You always put your faith and trust in me.
8. You're always on my side.

9. We can talk on the phone for hours together.

10. When i'm crying, you would find lots of ways to cheer me up!
11. When i'm with you, nothing else seems to matter.
12. When you're around, everything is fun!
13. You taught me the meaning of love.
14. Every moment that i spent with you is filled with fun.
15. You never give up on me and that's what keep me going.

16. I LOVE YOUR SMILE, REALLY I DO!! :]

17. In my story of life, the best chapters are filled with you.

18. Every heartbeat that my heart beats, it's for you!

19. You're the one who holds the key to my heart.
20. Everytime i look at you, my heart misses a beat.
21. Every moment that i spent with you, i teasure them!
22. You're someone who makes happiness happen.
23. I feel at ease in your arms.
24. I want to stay forever with you.
25. I just cant imagine me being without you.
26. You're always on my mind, i just cant do without you.

27. Just a touch...and i lose my heart all over again.

28. Love is what you mean to me...and you mean everything to me.

29. You are the theme in my dreams.

30. You're someone i can be goofy with.

31. I enjoy being with you.

32. You'd give up your favourite past time to be with me.

33. You know all my little secrets and you keep them.

34. I had the time of my life and i owe it all to you.
35. You are special in your own ways and i love you for who you are...

Most importantly...

# There are endless reasons why i love you but most importantly is...darling knowing you is loving you.

I still love you, I still miss you!

No matter how much you hate or dislike me i would still love you whole heartedly... I cant stop loving you, is like how much i try forgetting you, your image would still remain in my heart, mind and soul! Your sweetness to me would always remain with me. Meomeries that i'm together with you, would flash in my mind! I can't stop thinking of you. It's like having me to forget you or maybe even leaving you, i might as well die and no longer live because you're my future. I need your love right now! Where are you? What to do? I still love you, I still miss you!

Wanting you, Missing you..

Blogging again...Haha! Hmmm, today nothing much happen, no special staff...send my younger bro to tuition and it rain! Unlucky Much!!>< Was soak wet! But i love it! Hopefully i get sick! :P On my way back, fall down and guess what? Got one super big balooko! WTH! Haha! While..all i want to say is love comes in different ways i can be at my weakest point in life. You are someone so special, wanting to be part of my life. You encourage me to continue. The thought of us locked together two hearts pounding a song. Love being made between us. Loving you is all my heart can do. Yearning to hold you tightly in my arms<3 And i know that you are someone so perious that i don't wanna lose you, putting my full trust in you say...you're my angel from above? haha! Giving myself to you comepletely, really...i didn't regret. You make me feel so comfortable around you. I'm willing to give you everything even if it coast my life!<3 Living out my life for you carry me deep within your hand missing you...wanting you...loving me as i love you!<3

WHY?!

Is that how you think of me?! Why would i ever look down on you? Don't you know my feelings for you are true?! Why are you doing this to me? Why do you always think that i don't love you? TELL ME WHY ?!?! Why do i love someone, who doesn't love me back? Why do i cry over someone who doesn't hurt me? Why do i always think of her, if she never thought of me? Why do i always wait for her, if she never have never waited for me? Why do i see her, when she never sees me?! WHY  ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!

I miss you!! I want you! I need you!

It's late le...still up... why? Cuz, i miss you alot! >< didn't wanna tell you afraid you would stay up with me. You said you wish your brain is dead..if it's serious it'll end up diying! I wont let that happen! I wish i could beside you clicking onto you forever! No matter how much you dislike me, still will click onto you making sure you don't do anything stupid and yeah...like i said 'I WISH' i know i cant stay with you forever but maybe soon right? I want to be beside you when you're sad, happy, bored..i wanna be the only one that you want to be beside...holding onto you forever...I need you, I miss you even in my dreams i'm with you...sigh...thinking of you now cant you see? MISS YOU! NEED YOU! WANTING YOU!