Tonight is just me and my tears!

Cried in school today... cuz, was shouted by you for no reason...== wts. I feel so shitty case now...;/ Cut my self... deep into my skin... Then was needed to went around calling out for monitress and got misunderstand...== And was from you?! Wtf... didn't expect that you would believe what ppl say?!>< How stupid i could be believing you were OKAY with it... but, you cried secretly... Fuck! I hate myself like seriously...;/ sigh... after school was actually fine got back to my normal mood after a long day. You came up to me i thought you wanted to say something else but instead you just said my sister is waiting for me in the canteen am like ohh.. yeah i know... but before i could say you left..;/ nevermind... went down to look for my sis and you were with her, walk over took my soft toy back from you and heard from YOUR friend that  someone smell it i was like i didn't let anyone smell it yet you allow, i don't even let anyone touch it!>< Left and headed some other places with my sis and my dad went around... didn't talk much didn't really have the mood through...;/ my fake laughter was there... hiax... who am i kidding? Why do i always feel this strange feeling in my heart?! What's that?! I had never had this feeling so hurt before! Cried while bathing... didn't help...== not at all... and guess now i need to cry myself to sleep... All i wanna ask you is if i call out your name in a prayer would you leave me alone in tears? Knowing that i need you now so badly would you turn around and comfort me? Tonight i wanna cry... just me and my tears...